I have been doing 100 times better recently. It is much easier to talk about losing our baby and I was finally able to take the maternity clothes out of the closet and store them for next time (hopefully!) I can think about what happened and see that not only did it make me a stronger person, it made my relationship with my husband stronger and it made me a better mother to our 3 children.

It's very easy to get stressed out with day to day life and the demands of raising a family. However, since losing baby David I realize how amazing our children are and I cherish every moment we have with them. I no longer look at the fingerprints on the windows, Play-Doh mushed into the carpet or toys all over the living room and wish they would be more careful. I thank God that they are there because I know that someday I will long for them to be little again.

I have also realized how lucky I am to have a wonderful husband, who is truly my partner and friend. After having 3 kiddos in 4 years our relationship was often placed on the back burner. Our time was devoted to day-to-day activities, leaving little time for our relationship. Going through the loss of a child together has renewed the fact that we are a team. I know that I have often taken him for granted and that is no longer the case. He was my "rock" through this whole ordeal. My shoulder to cry on, my "other half". I am blessed to have married a wonderful man who is loyal and the best father I could ever hope for.

Most days things have gotten back to normal. Every once in awhile, I hear a song or see a newborn and I get teary. But the pain has subsided and I know it will be okay.