It is getting a little easier day by day. Although our healing is a little stunted by the fact that we are awaiting genetic testing on the baby. My greatest fear is that they will tell us that there is something genetically wrong with us and that we will have to do genetic counseling in order to have more children. IVF is expensive and because we already have 3 healthy children I'm afraid we may choose to just be thankful for the wonderful kiddos we have.

I always knew I would have a lot of kids. As the youngest of 4 children, and the aunt of 12, I have always viewed having a large family as a blessing. I became an aunt for the first time when I was 12. Because my older sister had a difficult labor and the baby was over 10 lbs. I spent the week helping her out after my niece was born. I knew from a very early age that I was meant to be a mother. And a mother of many children. In a time when most of my friends laugh when I tell them we're "not done", and people ask if we intended on getting pregnant "again", I know that's what we are meant to do.